My New Year’s Resolution. . .
. . .is to love God with all of my mind in 2012. This one seems to be a struggle for me (since I’m already being vulnerable in my blogs this week, I will confess that). This resolution has actually been on my list for a year or two, and although I know I won’t reach perfection until I pass through heaven’s gate, as a self-professed worry-wart, I would love to trade my “what-if” thinking for a more disciplined mind.
The Bible tells me that I have the mind of Christ (1 Corinthians 2:16), that I received it when I accepted Christ as my Savior, as the only One who could free me from my enslavement to sin (including the sin of worry). However, I do not claim that promise often enough and instead of thinking of “whatever is true, honorable, right, pure, lovely, of good repute, excellent and worthy of praise” (Philippians 4:8), I am often tempted to think of whatever is scary, worrisome, uncertain, out of my control, unlikely to happen, and harmful to my body and spirit.
Pastor John MacArthur has said, “Worry is needless because of God’s bounty, senseless because of God’s promise, useless because of its impotence to do anything productive, and faithless because it is characteristic of unbelievers.”
Ouch! But true. Does this mean that, along with engaging in something needless, senseless, and useless, I’m also weakening my witness to unbelievers because of my worry? I believe so! Are they drawn to the awesomeness of God when they see me exhibiting such a lack of trust in my Creator, Provider, and Heavenly Father? I’m showing (contrary to what I actually believe) that I don’t rest in God’s promises to love and not condemn (Romans 8:1), to work everything for my good (Romans 8:28), and to take care of me even more than He cares for the birds of the air (Matthew 6:25-34). Will He “supply all my needs according to His riches in glory” (Philippians 4:19)? Will His grace be sufficient for anything I need and His power “perfected in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9)? Is He “able to guard what I have entrusted to Him” (2 Timothy 1:12)? Will I take care of my body which is the “temple of the Holy Spirit” (1 Corinthians 6:19)?
I’d really like to just get over myself already (isn’t worry just a whole lot of self-focus?), stop excusing it with “well, worry is just what mother’s do,” and put my mind’s focus solely on loving and worshipping God. . .because He is worthy of my whole mind and the list of praiseworthy things about God that I could think on, instead of the endless list of earthly things that I concern myself with, is eternally long. And I know He’s already given me enough grace to get there–but as many before me have pointed out, we are in a battle for our mind and the arsenal we need to take our mind back from the Enemy in this battleground is found in reading, memorizing and meditating on the Word of God and hiding it in our heart (Psalm 119:11) and MIND. Hopefully, by God’s grace and enablement, I can chip away at my undisciplined mind a little bit more and more so that my life will draw unbelievers to the God that saves, provides, and is fully and completely trustworthy.